Living by faith isn’t always easy. Sometimes you’ll look crazy, especially if you let it be known that the choices you are making is because you believe God is leading you to.
But you won’t look crazy to God.
Am I now trying to win the approval of men, or of God? Or am I trying to please men? If I were trying to please men, I would not be a servant of Christ. -Galatians 1:10
“I tell you the truth, anyone who will not receive the kingdom of God like a little child will never enter it.” -Mark 10:15 I take this verse as we are to have faith like a child, not just to receive and enter the kingdom but we should live with childlike faith. Think about a little child, do they worry? No, they don’t. They expect their parents to take care of them. They don’t sit and worry… Do my parent’s love me? I’ve been too bad for my parents to love me… they don’t think like that, so neither should we think that about God.
Living with childlike faith is trusting God with your life and with what you feel led to do. Living with childlike faith is knowing your heavenly Father will take care of you and not forsake you. Living with childlike faith gives you a peace in your heart… but sometimes you might look a little coo-coo.
I’m like… God I’m lookin’ a lil crazy out here, can you do something, Please!
I haven’t had a job (income) in like ten years and with our circumstances I should have been “working”. But for some reason this is how it turned out.
I want to “work”, I just have to work towards what I believe is Gods will, and not someone else’s, even if that someone else is my husband and this is one of my biggest conflicts and tests. You’d think if your husband is asking you to get a “job” to help with the bills, that you’d do that, right? So I’m confused (but not confused) as to why I am not doing everything I can to help my husband, to help myself and my family. And I’m confused why I should even have to… because if my husband Wanted to “take care of” his family -he could.
But I never intended on “not working” for this long. I never intended to put all this financial weight on my husband. I was trusting God and my husband somehow was being convinced that I didn’t care. And because of the way he’s thought, it’s affected the way he’s treated me -testing my faith about what God is leading me to do.
God, how can I do what I believe You’re telling me to do when it’s creating so much conflict in my marriage?
It would be easier to just get a job.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight. -Proverbs 3:5,6
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways,” declares the Lord. -Isaiah 55:8
“For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” -Jeremiah 29:11
“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat; or about your body, what you will wear. Life is more than food, and the body more than clothes…. But seek His kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well.” -Luke 12:22-23,31
So Jesus said not to worry, seek God and He will provide. So I’m not worrying, I am seeking His kingdom and trusting Him to provide.
I don’t know what I’m doing but I’m doing it, I’m living by faith.
I might look crazy to others but I’ve made it this far just by following what I believe is the leading of the Holy Spirit and I still have what’s most important, my family.
Stay tuned to see where He leads me/us next.